I’m sitting here wondering why I like you? Why do I talk to you? It all leads back to the one person I could careless about. That one person you still care about. How could I be so blind an not see it. You liked her first. You used me to make her jealous. All that time I thought you liked me and actually cared. All those phone calls were to get me to be like ohh Jared called me today. Every text you were hoping she would see. An now? You’ve learned the ugly truth. Brooke didn’t like you anymore after she met Aaron. He was the guy who didn’t play with her mind, say he loved her when he didn’t. He just couldn’t handle her “doesn’t matter.” Now… Your still wishing it was her you were texting an not me. I was and still am the replacement for her. The one who will never actually be good enough. I liked you, even when I was to blind to see you were using me. An Aaron, he was just nice. Kept everything real and didn’t play the mind games. I can remember talking to him here and there. I always wondered what you guys saw in her. Now I just don’t care. I’m not going to be your replacement for Brooke. I am Audrey-Anna. The one who lives her life not being used for whatever you want. I may not have been good enough or ever will be for you. But one day someone will like me for me and not because they can use me to make someone else “jealous.” If you haven’t read the why I am, who I am. I can’t stay around if its going to be like it is. You ignore me when your out with friends, school, work, relaxing… pretty much all the time. Your probally lying and with your girlfriend. That’s fine because life moves on past you. I don’t believe the I love you(s). When every day you do the same things to me. Never changing. You haven’t changed and maybe I haven’t changed much either. BUT I can’t take this anymore. I can’t be played like this everyday of my life. Let’s get real, I’m good enough for now. I won’t be that girl. I’m done crying and waiting for you. So when you change, write me. But I may not be waiting..
When you meet someone who makes you laugh for hours about the stupidest things, you know you’ve found your BEST FRIEND!